• Personal

    Dear Me

    November 17, 2023

    Dear Me,

    I want to take this moment to honor the journey you’ve been on — the one that spans eleven years filled with love, dreams, hope, and, yes, pain. You invested so much time and emotion into something you believed in, something you hoped would last a lifetime. And even when things started to change, when the distance grew between you two, you held on. You stayed hopeful, waiting for clarity and honesty that never came.

    It hurt deeply to realize that the future you imagined wasn’t going to happen the way you thought it would. To learn, unexpectedly and silently, that he got married without telling you—it felt like the ground beneath you gave way. His silence was louder than any words he could have said. I know that pain feels raw and heavy, and it’s okay to feel betrayed, confused, and heartbroken.

    But through all of this, I want you to recognize your incredible strength. You faced a truth that many would avoid. You found the courage to end a relationship that no longer honored your worth or your heart. That was not an easy decision. Ending such a long chapter wasn’t giving up—it was an act of bravery and self-respect.

    Remember, healing is not a straight path. There will be days when the pain feels overwhelming, when the memories flood in, and when you question if you’ll ever fully move on. Those days are part of the process. But with each sunrise, you are moving forward, even if it doesn’t always feel that way. Every tear you shed, every moment of reflection, and every small step you take toward self-care is progress.

    You are deserving of kindness — especially from yourself. Speak gently to your heart, nurture your soul, and allow yourself the grace to heal at your own pace. You are not defined by this loss, but by your resilience, your capacity to love, and your willingness to grow.

    You are whole, even when you feel broken. You are enough, even when doubt creeps in. And this journey, painful as it has been, is shaping you into a stronger, wiser, and more compassionate version of yourself.

    Keep trusting your intuition. Keep believing in the love you deserve — starting with the love and respect you give to yourself. The future is still unwritten, and there are brighter days ahead. When you’re ready, open your heart again—not just to someone else, but to the beautiful possibility of loving yourself fully.

    I am proud of you, and I will always be here for you.

    With all my love and compassion,
    Me

    Read More
  • Random

    Thank You Note

    November 2, 2023

    Hey everyone, I’ve got some exciting news to share—I’ve been promoted to a Senior position, Senior System and Application Engineer! It’s a pretty big deal for me, and I couldn’t be more thrilled. But you know what’s on my mind now? Sending a thank-you note to my Head. Yep, it’s important to show appreciation, and I want to make sure I get it just right.

    So, “thank you for the promotion” is a good start, but I think I can do better. After all, this isn’t just any promotion. How cool is that? I’m thinking of putting a little extra effort into my thank-you note to really let him know how grateful I am.

    I mean, they appreciate gratitude, right? And what better way to show it than with a heartfelt thank-you note? It’s like saying, “Hey, thanks for believing in me and giving me this amazing opportunity.” Plus, it’s a chance for me to express my excitement about the new position and all the cool stuff I’ll get to do.

    But where do I even start? So yeah, sending a thank-you note might seem like a small thing, but I think it’s important. It’s a chance for me to acknowledge all the hard work that went into getting me to this point and to show my boss that I’m ready to step up and make the most of this incredible opportunity.

    Wish me luck!

    Read More
  • Personal

    Letting Go After Eleven Years

    October 1, 2023

    It’s been a while since everything happened — since I realized that the relationship I had held onto for eleven years was no longer what I thought it was. For over a decade, we shared moments, dreams, and a future I believed in. But somewhere along the way, after a difficult cool-off period, honest conversations stopped.

    I remember when he told my family that after his sister’s wedding, we would get married. I felt relief, like finally, there was clarity and hope. But after that, we never spoke about us again. The silence lingered, growing heavier each year.

    August 2023, I found out by chance that he is in New Zealand — not from him, but from outside sources. Later, I discovered he had gotten married before going to NZ without ever telling me. When I confronted him with what I discovered, he didn’t say a word. That silence broke something inside me. It forced me to face a painful truth: I needed to let go.

    Ending an eleven-year chapter was one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it was necessary. It’s okay to feel hurt, confused, or betrayed. What matters most is that through it all, I found strength and courage I didn’t know I had.

    I want to remind myself — and anyone who reads this — that our worth isn’t tied to the length of a relationship or someone else’s choices. We are whole on our own.

    Healing takes time. It’s a journey of kindness toward yourself and openness to new beginnings. And when the time comes, love will find its way back — starting with loving ourselves first.

    Read More
  • Random

    40 Before 40

    September 23, 2023

    I am not sure how it happened so fast. It has been a month since I turned 39. In less than a year, I will be FORTY. And not even far enough in life.

    See: How I Celebrated My Birthday

    Honestly speaking, I could not be more excited. It cannot be avoided. That is life.

    Life begins at 40, they say.

    But before I turn that age, I want to accomplish things that I felt I should have done in my twenties. I want to complete at least a handful of these before I reach it.

    I have been meaning to write this list for a while now, but I always got distracted. But I am determined to make it happen. I know it is going to be exciting.

    40 things in less than a year is a lot, but I will try my best ticking most before I am 40 or even 50. This is all about having fun chasing dreams.

    See: {Travel Bucket List} 80+ Challenges

    Here are my 40 goals before I turn 40.

    1. Travel somewhere SOLO – It scares and excites me in equal measure.
    2. Book a photoshoot session – Capture this moment in time.
    3. Take a road trip – I started driving this year; now I’m ready for an adventure.
    4. Celebrate New Year in a different province – Ring in the New Year somewhere new.
    5. Do a five-kilometer run – My first marathon attempt.
    6. Get in shape – Reach 65kg and feel confident in a bikini.
    7. Develop an exercise routine – Make fitness a habit.
    8. Enjoy a spa day every now and then – Regular self-care.
    9. Launch a YouTube Channel – Maybe about road trips? Let’s see.
    10. Try a short haircut – But not shorter than last year.
    11. Give my hair a lighter hue – Step out of my comfort zone.
    12. Get rid of credit card debt – Financial freedom by forty.
    13. Have savings and insurance – Start a side hustle if needed.
    14. Complete a 30 to 120-day “No Spend” challenge – No Shopee/Lazada, no FoodPanda.
    15. Build a capsule wardrobe – Find and stick to a style that works for me.
    16. Plan my 40th birthday with family – A celebration to remember.
    17. Buy/Get myself an amazing 40th birthday present – I deserve it.
    18. Write in my blog every single day – Consistency is key.
    19. Ride a motorcycle – Recently learned and planning to own one.
    20. Become a morning person – A lifelong challenge for this night owl.

    Continue reading, we are only half way there.

    Read More
  • Next Question

    How I Celebrated My Birthday

    August 24, 2023

    I cannot remember the last time I shared my birthday celebration with my colleagues. Usually, I take vacation leave to spend it with my family or friends. This time, I have decided to go to work on my birthday, since I am saving the remaining 1-1/2 leave credits I have for the Christmas Holiday.

    Since, I know my colleagues very well, I was not expecting anything from them. Never in my thoughts had a slightest idea.

    My colleagues were taken aback when I showed up early than my usual. Their hands were full putting up the birthday banner they diy-ed. I could not help but giggle at their faces. They were caught off guard. Anyways, I let them finish whatever they are doing.

    At around 11:30am, my sister and nephew called. My nephew got me the sweetest birthday wish. And as we were talking, I was surprised to hear my colleagues singing behind me.. The cake and the gesture.

    Sales and Engineering Team

    I took SNM/ENG out to lunch and PMD colleague to dinner.

    Later that night, I took a walk around the neighborhood. It was so nice to just enjoy my own company.

    Happy Birthday, Self.

    Thank you everyone who wished me a happy birthday.

    Read More
  • Random

    Weekend Reflections

    September 14, 2022

    Today marks the end of a three-day weekend. Long weekends only come around a few times a year, making them a precious opportunity to recharge and unwind.

    Saturday greeted me with the luxury of waking up late, a feeling that never gets old, especially knowing there’s no work waiting for me the next day. Yesterday, we had a blast with trick-or-treating, a tradition we hadn’t enjoyed since 2019. The treats were delightful, and the joy of the occasion lingered as I savored a lazy morning. Eventually, I got myself out of bed and dove into the day. A quick lunch at Robinsons Galleria was a perfect way to kickstart the weekend vibes.

    Sunday arrived with a couple of plans in mind, but they were cancelled in favor of a more relaxed approach. As the day unfolded, I found myself catching up on all the things that often get pushed aside during work day.

    Reflecting on my weekend, I couldn’t help but wonder how others were spending their days off. Are they making the most of this precious time, or letting it slip away? Long weekends offer a chance to break free from routine and inject some excitement into our lives.

    For me, they’re a reminder to embrace spontaneity and seek out new experiences. Whether it’s exploring a new hobby, indulging in a mini adventure, or simply enjoying quality time with loved ones, there’s always room for something special.

    As the long weekend draws to a close, I find myself marveling at how quickly the time has flown by. But instead of lamenting its passing, I’m grateful for the memories made and the opportunity to rest and recharge.

    So, what do you usually do on long weekends? Whether it’s a quiet retreat or an action-packed adventure, I’d love to hear how you make the most of your well-deserved break.

    Read More
error: