Dear Jhi,
Today felt like one of those little days that somehow said more than it seemed to.
The night before, I had already given up on waiting for you. I said goodnight, even though you never actually got to say it. 😂
Then the next morning, you explained.
“Sorry nagbrownout sa amin kagabi, at nakatulog ako ng maaga na rin. Sorry.”
It was such a simple explanation, but I appreciated that you gave one. I think I had been missing our conversations lately, and sometimes when I miss you, I become a little more sensitive than I should.
I even admitted that I thought you might already have someone else to talk to.
And you immediately reassured me.
“Ikaw lang po, okay. Wala akong ibang chat at tinatawagan. Ikaw lang po.”
That was probably my favorite part.
Not because I needed you to prove anything to me, but because you noticed that I was feeling a little jealous and chose to reassure me instead of making fun of me for it.
Then I asked, half-seriously, half-teasingly, if I was allowed to be jealous.
And you sent me three kissing emojis.
So I guess that was your answer. 😘
Later that day, when you noticed I seemed a little sad, you asked,
“oh bat parang malungkot po..?”
I told you I was okay, just a little sad.
And somehow, that was enough for you to notice.
Maybe that is what I keep appreciating about you. You notice the little changes in me, even when I don’t directly say what I’m feeling.
Then you started explaining yourself again, this time about all the people you know from the game. You told me that you have known many of them for a long time, especially those from the PH alliance, and that you had been around the game for years.
I joked that your explanation was basically a novel.
You laughed and told me to copy and paste it because it was so long. 😂
That was us again.
A little serious.
A little dramatic.
A little jealous.
Then laughing about it five minutes later.
And maybe that is why I missed talking to you so much.
It isn’t always about the big conversations.
Sometimes, it’s just you asking if I’m okay.
Sometimes, it’s you explaining something because you don’t want me to misunderstand.
Sometimes, it’s you reassuring me when I’m being a little too sensitive.
And sometimes, it’s just us being silly together.
I think what I liked most about that day was knowing that when I told you I was a little sad, you didn’t just brush it off.
You asked.
You noticed.
You stayed.
And maybe I don’t always need grand gestures from you.
Sometimes, I just need to know that when I get a little quiet, you will notice.
When I get a little jealous, you will reassure me.
And when I miss talking to you, you’ll understand why.
Because truthfully, Jhi, I really did miss you.
And maybe I was a little matampuhin that morning.
But you knew exactly how to make it better. ❤️
Love,
Nikka