Dear Jhi,
I keep thinking about that question you asked me.
“🥰🥰🥰 maybe God has a plan.. kaya mong ipaglaban ba?”
At first, it sounded like one of those things we casually say during a conversation. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that it wasn’t really a small question.
Because what does it mean to fight for something?
It means believing that something is worth the effort even when it’s not always easy. It means choosing to stay when there are reasons to walk away. It means being patient with the distance, the busy days, the missed conversations, and all the things neither of us can control.
And when you asked me if I could fight for it, I didn’t want to give you an answer just because it sounded nice.
So I told you honestly:
“If it is something worth keeping, I’m willing to try and fight for it ☺️☺️”
I didn’t say I will fight no matter what.
I said if it is something worth keeping.
Because I think that’s the truth.
I don’t know yet what we’re going to become. I don’t know what God has planned for us. I don’t know if this little thing between us is going to become something bigger or if someday we’ll look back and realize it was simply one beautiful chapter of our lives.
But I do know that what we’ve built isn’t something I want to dismiss just because it’s complicated.
We’ve gone from being people who simply knew each other through a game, to talking more often, sharing little pieces of our days, teasing each other, calling each other, and slowly learning things about each other that we probably didn’t expect to know.
And somewhere along the way, you became someone I care about.
So when you asked me “kaya mong ipaglaban ba?”, maybe I was also asking myself the same question.
Could I really do that?
And my answer was:
If it’s worth keeping, yes. I can try.
Then you replied with:
😘😘😘
Three little kisses.
You didn’t explain anything.
You didn’t say “me too.”
You didn’t make another big statement.
Just 😘😘😘.
But somehow, I understood it as your way of receiving what I said.
And maybe that’s enough for that moment.
Because sometimes we don’t need to have everything figured out.
Maybe we just need to know that both of us are willing to see where this goes.
Maybe God really does have a plan.
Maybe that’s why, despite all the timing, distance, interruptions, and uncertainties, our paths crossed in the first place.
I don’t know what that plan is, Jhi.
But if one day we find ourselves standing at a point where we have to choose whether this is worth keeping…
I hope we both remember this conversation.
You asked me:
“Kaya mong ipaglaban ba?”
And I answered:
“If it is something worth keeping, I’m willing to try and fight for it.”
Maybe that’s all we need to know for now.
Not a promise of forever.
Not a guarantee that everything will work out.
Just two people saying, in their own little ways:
“Let’s see if this is something worth fighting for.”
And maybe…
God already knows the answer. ❤️
Always, Nikka