Dear Jhi,
I was trying to figure out what to do with my birthday.
I told you I couldn’t decide whether I should just go to Baguio or come to you in Manila.
I wanted to spend my birthday with you.
But at the same time, I didn’t know if you would actually have free time.
And I didn’t want to travel all the way there only to find out you were busy.
I think that was what made the decision so difficult.
I wanted you there.
I just didn’t know if there was room for me in your schedule.
Then August 20 came.
You greeted me good morning with those sweet little emojis, and somehow, it made the day feel a little warmer. 🥰
I asked if you had seen my message from the day before.
You said,
“yha! i read it po. il check my sched po.”
It was a simple answer.
But I held onto it.
Because at least you were going to check.
At least you were considering it.
And for me, that meant something.
So I told you,
“Take your time po. Pero sana may free time ka.”
I didn’t want to pressure you.
I just wanted a little time with you.
That was really all I was asking for.
By the next day, though, I was already teasing you about how long it was taking you to check your schedule.
I said it jokingly.
But maybe there was a tiny bit of truth behind the joke.
Because when you want to see someone, you start wondering if they want to see you too.
And when you are waiting for someone to make time for you, even a simple schedule check can start feeling like a big deal.
I didn’t need anything extravagant for my birthday.
I just wanted to know if you could make a little space for me.
And maybe that was why I kept waiting for your answer.
Because somewhere between Manila and Baguio, I wasn’t really choosing a place.
I was hoping you would choose me.
Love,
Nikka