Dear Blog,
Like I always do, I teased him playfully today. It’s our thing, really — throwing jokes, a little push and pull. But this time… the teasing kind of backfired.
I do not know what came over me, but something shifted. I felt this strange tightness in my chest. Was it jealousy? Whatever it was, it caught me off guard. Suddenly, I went quiet. Everything felt heavier than it should. And then… I cried.
Yup. Out of nowhere.
I told him I was not okay. I actually said it. And then — silence.
No reply. No “What is wrong?” No “I am here.” Just… nothing.
Turns out, he had fallen asleep.
Now here I am, feeling silly for how much it bothered me. I mean, why did it sting like that? We are not even anything. I do not even know where this is going.
But the truth? It felt like something more.
And that “more” is what is messing with my heart tonight.
Until next time,
—Me